For me, this time of year is usually about feeling bad that I'm not managing to hit all my new years resolutions perfectly. I truly truly want to believe that all I want comes to me easily and without hassle and I truly want to believe in myself. But, come mid January, my belief and trust begins to wane. This year is no different. My resolve and determination has started to waver and I feel like giving up on my goals. Like a big black mean cloud, uncertainty has come to pay me a visit.
I really want to trust that everything is ok right now, in this moment ...but everything doesn't feel ok! I feel like I've got so much to do, so much to learn. I constantly feel like I'm not good enough and I want to be the best I can be. At everything. Now.
I'm not enjoying 'the moment' most of the time because I'm too busy trying to be better, get somewhere, be something, and I'm too busy telling myself I could do better, I could try harder, I could be healthier, fitter, faster, cleverer, artier....
|Love Yourself Deeply|
This year I would like to Trust.
Trust in the Universe, Trust in Life, Trust that I really AM truly AWESOME, and that everything is ok :) Because truly, everything IS ok and the only reason I feel it isn't ok is because my own self made belief that I need to be better, and that I'm not good enough keeps rearing it's ugly head. So, my word for 2014 is Trust; Trust in the process, Trust I'm ok, Trust that I'm safe., and Trust that everything is and will be ok. It's a strong word for me because it means I need to let go and just breathe. But, in doing so, I just might start to create a space to enjoy and live in the moment.
Thank you for listening :)
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