Tuesday, 21 January 2014

Trust


For me, this time of year is usually about feeling bad that I'm not managing to hit all my new years resolutions perfectly. I truly truly want to believe that all I want comes to me easily and without hassle and I truly want to believe in myself. But, come mid January, my belief and trust begins to wane. This year is no different. My resolve and determination has started to waver and I feel like giving up on my goals. Like a big black mean cloud, uncertainty has come to pay me a visit.

I really want to trust that everything is ok right now, in this moment ...but everything doesn't feel ok! I feel like I've got so much to do, so much to learn. I constantly feel like I'm not good enough and I want to be the best I can be. At everything. Now.

I'm not enjoying 'the moment' most of the time because I'm too busy trying to be better, get somewhere, be something, and I'm too busy telling myself I could do better, I could try harder, I could be healthier, fitter, faster, cleverer, artier....

Love Yourself Deeply


This year I would like to Trust.

Trust in the Universe, Trust in Life, Trust that I really AM truly AWESOME, and that everything is ok :) Because truly, everything IS ok and the only reason I feel it isn't ok is because my own self made belief that I need to be better, and that I'm not good enough keeps rearing it's ugly head. So, my word for 2014 is Trust; Trust in the process, Trust I'm ok, Trust that I'm safe., and Trust that everything is and will be ok. It's a strong word for me because it means I need to let go and just breathe. But, in doing so, I just might start to create a space to enjoy and live in the moment.

Breathe Deeply

Thank you for listening :)


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12 comments:

  1. I know what you mean... I think many of us feel the same way! Beautiful art!

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  2. "I'm not enjoying 'the moment' most of the time because I'm too busy trying to be better, get somewhere, be something, and I'm too busy telling myself I could do better, I could try harder, I could be healthier, fitter, faster, cleverer, artier...."

    I soooooo identify with this!! This is why my word of the year is 'journey', I want to focus more on the process, the now, truly being in this moment.

    Love your inner guardian painting. I really like the dark outlines around the hair and face, really makes her stand out. How did you achieve that?

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    1. Yayy! So happy to connect with you Iris and thank you. I love your word of the year, enjoying the journey is as important as getting there isn't it! :) The dark outlines were made with a soft graphite pencil (2B) and blending stump xx

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  3. ENJOYED YOUR POST, TRUST IS THE BIGGEST OF HURDLES OUT THERE,,,, BUT IT IS SO MUCH EASIER IF YOU DO LEARN TO LIVE ONLY IN AND FOR THE NOW.. THE MOMENTS, NOW... ANYTHING LESE IS DECEPTION AS WE ARE NOT OUR OWN.... GOALS ARE TO LEAD US, TO SHOW US OUR WAYS TO GO.... BUT TO FOCUS ON ACCOMPLISHING THEM ONLY IS LIFE ROBBERY.... THE VISON IS TO LIVE.... NOT IN AND FOR ONES FUTURE,,,, BUT TO APPRECIATE AND LIVE FOR AND IN THIS MOMENT,,,, APPRECIATING EACH MOMENT,, ENJOYING IT, LIVING IT.... TRUSTING IT.... NOT TRUSTING THE FUTURE... FOR NONE OF US ARE PROMISED ONE...YOU LL FIND IN TRYING TO LIVE THIS WAY A NEW FREEDOM AND MORE OF A AWARENESS AND THANKFULNESS... OK OFF SOAP BOX....

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  4. Very nice, Gracie. I love your colors and your word. Trust was hard for me but then I got very sick and learned that I had to trust my caregivers if I wanted to get better and enjoy life again. It takes time and I wish you well on your year's journey to discover how important it is to not only trust yourself but others as well. Hugs, Bevy

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    1. Thank you Bevy :) I feel sad that you got sick, you sound so positive though and it's inspirational. Thank you for connecting with me xx

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  5. Excellent words Gracie and well written with wonderful art..., trust me when I say that.My word is faith..., faith in me, I am enough. x

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  6. Thank you for your lovely kind words everyone, so lovely to read :) xx

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  7. It is something how you wrote this months ago but I just found it today because you wrote on my blog.
    Thank you for that and for this. This fits my life so much right now!

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